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Soooo, this isn't probably much of a shock, but I think Id do the right thing to share this with some of my followers... .

After a lot of thinking, I decided to stop with my photography study. It's been enough, and I think it's the right thing to do.

At this moment I am studying for almost 7 years on a study that should take 4 years... . By the law I am allowed to take more time on my studies as I have several (illness) indications... But I think everyone can imagine the feeling of failure if you still don't have anything achieved in 7 years while others do it in 4... .

The study isn't hard and is more close to being easy really... My teachers have often questioned me why I don't simply start for myself already as they think I do well enough... That is when I am at school...
And there is the problem... when I am at school... .

Most people know (or dont so in that case, prepare for a shock...) I have several problems... I've been diagnosed with Manic Depression and Borderline. (Tadaaaa!~)
This means in my case I am really looking for a good enviroment and I like to know what people expect from me. No chaos, order. (This sound a bit Templarish heh? FILTHY BORDERLINERS!!)
Anyway, My school is about the exact opposite of this. It costs me a LOT of effort to go to school and just sit there and wait 'till I can go home. (As really, I don't learn much new stuff.)
Even then, Im still totally broken and dead when I get home. I want to crawl in my bed and stop the time. Whiiiich I still can not, working on that.
Anyhow, I am allowed to work about 20 hours a week and my school really doesn't care about it. They don't even want to talk about it, there is no option.

And really, I can understand people find it hard to believe something is wrong with me as no one can see something about me. I ain't sitting in a wheelchair and I don't have any broken arms... My brains are in a wheelchair.. they function well, but with their own difficulties... . But as no one can see that, no one cares.

It's 7 years later now, and I think it's ok. It feels like trying so hard for something I will never achieve in the end. Maybe I try something else to get at least a bit of appreciation in the end. But for what I'm doing now, It's been well and good.

I'm not stupid, nor I am dumb, I can make good photo's which I will continue doing, but not for school. As this delivers me 500 Euro loan a month and that's just too much.

There.
And for everyone who thinks I am looking for attention for being 'oh so emo', screw yourselves and you know where to find the delete/unwatch button. I know the real deal and that's fine for me.

There.

XoXo~
  • Mood: Tired
  • Playing: AC BF
  • Eating: Rice with Milk (thats really good!)
  • Drinking: Cola

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Maryonne Vlasblom
Artist | Hobbyist | Artisan Crafts
Netherlands
General
Name: Maryonne Vlasblom
Nickname: Cinestry Rozar
Age: 23
City Born: Ede
Current Residence: Ede.
Work: Scare Actor, photographer.
Favourite genre of music: Rock, punk-rock, techno, instrumental (Soundtracks of movies and such).

Photography
Favorite kind of photography: Portraits/Studio
Favourite photographer: Sandra Nagler-Dahl, Erwin Olaf
Operating System: Windows 8
Editting: Photoshop CC
Camera: Nikon D80
Lenses: Sigma 18-200,
Favorite studioset: Elinchrome

Cosplay
Favourite cartoon character: Liru the Werewolf
Cosplays so far: Courtesan (ACBrotherhood), Alex Mercer (Prototype), Corsair (ACRevelations), Kuo (Infamous2), Original Japanese Dress, Maverick (AC3), Anne Bonny (ACBF), James Kenway/Mary Read (ACBF), The Dandy (ACBF), Safiya Bennu (AC OC)
Started Cosplaying: June 2011.
Level: Hobbyist
Planning: Beatrice Hell Version (Dante's Inferno), Ponyo's Mother (Ponyo), Skullkid (LOZ, Orcarina of time), Tsunade (Naruto), Pyramid Head, Haytham Kenway (AC3), Malon (LOZ), Jack Sparrow (POTC), Venelope von Schweetz -Princessdress- (Wreck-it-Ralph), Julien du Casse (ACBF)
Interests

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:iconmankrikscow:
thanks for the watch! :D
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MaryMODIFIED 2 days ago  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Graag gedaan. :) Herkende je van de EFF, k had nog foto's voor je liggen ;)
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:iconmankrikscow:
oh awesome! Ik ben heel erg benieuwd! :D
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MaryMODIFIED 1 day ago  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Ik ben er mee bezig. Ik kan ze hier uploaden met de download optie? Of als je ze liever elders binnen krijgt moet je me even mailen. (Kaartje heb ik je ergens gegeven... k was die ene die meebabbelde over dat een Malik wel awesome zou zijn.Einde zaterdag rond de avond..)
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CrystallineWolf 4 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
 OMG Cool webcam!!!!!!
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MaryMODIFIED 4 days ago  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Haha thanks ;)
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BeautifulBuccaneer Apr 9, 2014  New member Hobbyist General Artist
*don't mind me, just stalking* xD
You're going to cosplay Ponyos Mom? Oh Noes! 
That's too cool! (I looove this movie! catching loveI'll do Fujimoto! xD Well... I already bought all the fabrics, but they're lying around for more than 2 years now, I think. I think I've fainted.)
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MaryMODIFIED Apr 12, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Btw, if you're going to Connichi and you wanna make Fujimoto, I can make her before Connichi? :)

Xx
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BeautifulBuccaneer Apr 12, 2014  New member Hobbyist General Artist
Maaaaan, that would be quite epic! :happy: 
I planned to wear Kidd on sunday, too, buuut, for I'm wearing him/her on friday already, i could do Fujimoto on sunday instead.......
(At least, it would be a reason to finally take all the fabrics and do this. :powerup: )
I'd say, I'm up for it. :D
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MaryMODIFIED Apr 13, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Hahahaha fair enough. ;) Deal then ^-^ Yay!!!

Do you perhaps have FB btw?? :D
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