Hello ladies and gents, </i>
This afternoon I started with this same blog; but actually came to my senses and decided to do my English and Dutch homework first. It's quite a miracle. And I suspect my English teacher is going to faint when she sees how awfully much I've done. That is if she doesn't forget me again.
S-yeah, a lot to write off my chest again. Somehow I feel like starting with the good things for once. I'm not always sad and depressed, no-no, I'm often pretty happy and cheerful. I cherish these moments so I don't write about them that often. As a friend of mine once said "Let Mary have her cheerful time; she'll calm down this evening." - Yeap, Thats me.
Yeeh friends, gosh how awfully stupid to write this. I have had friends since my 16th. And since then ever. Some longer than others ofcourse. Yet I'm so, so very happy with them! There's no way to explain. I've been alone until I was 16, at that point my first real friend came along. We are still friends and others are joined since that day. I just want to let out a little cheer for them; I'm so glad they are who they are and there for me in good and bad times. Thanks~
Oooh touchy subject~
Not really; since quite some time things are finally setteling and I enjoy my stays at my parents. I rarely visit them now; yet if I can visit them I also have really missed them and am very glad to see them again. With my mother are things also good, we have a combined hobby now (sewing hee-hee) and we can chat about it for hours. She shows me things she made and all. It makes me smile. Things are so different from before. Im happy.
Can't be very specific about it. But I'm very happy to notice someone actually enjoys me being there. Enjoying my work, my presence and whole human being. I'm feeling appreciated, happy, home. It's great.
Finished the Maverick (again) the details do look better now. Yet I heard I need to weather it. Ack~ I'm clumpsier than a monkey with paint. Not sure if I dare to just spray that stuff on just yet. I decided I will make Edward Kenway. Hey; Im sure Haytham was more of a pain in the ass, so I guess I can do this. Not sure how it will turn out in the end. But I'm willing to give it a shot.
I am going to write some more again. I got an inventation for Archiveofourown, and I gladly accepted.
And for the last good thing: My weightloss. I lost about 40 pounds over last eight weeks. This is both good and bad. Therefor it is the last good thing on the list. It will return as the first bad thing aswell. I will explain this there.
Now for the bad things
Ofcourse there are lesser things in life. At this point its not huge, I had bigger bullies to fight, but it's not the best thing ever so to say.
Weight and Illness
Maybe I already wrote a little about this before. I'm not very sure. In short; About seven weeks ago I was rushed to the hospital because I couldnt keep any form of food or drink or water in my body. Everything came back, I needed water to be add in my body by a needle directly to my blood. As I was losing a lot of blood. I had several researches and small 'operations' to look inside my body what was going on. Yet they couldnt find anything.
Now the day today I can't eat what I was used to. Not in ammount, not in sort of food. Im losing weight at a freaking fast speed. Im now at the point of 40 pounds weightloss. It isn't bad since I really was horribly overweight, so I'm ok with it for now.
Yet I'm having more and more medical problems. Im losing a lot of weight, Im still losing blood from time to time and my tummy aches every second of the day. Its a feeling Im getting used to. Yet last weekend someone was pulling me in a corset and then I found out there was something horribly wrong there.
I had major pains and everything around me twisted like I was extremely drunk or ran around a pole for 40 rounds while looking down. I couldnt stand and I took some vitamin pills. The hospital says they can not help me until April the 17th... All of honest; I'm starting to worry again about this. And Im just shouting out for help and there is no one who hears me.
Oh, how could it be missing right? School, let the drama continue~
They told me I could finish this year, in even three months. I wouldnt have the certificate of a photographer but a general audio and visual designer. It's a wider range in possibillaties. I was okay with that since I don't want to become fulltime photographer in the end anyway. I started preparing English, Dutch and Maths for my exam. Out of the blue I was told I couldnt finish this year and I delayed till next year.
My parents got furious. And I'm fully with them. The idea was I was finishing all lessons this year and next year pay the full price, not having any lessons though, only join in the exams. Who thought that was a good plan? So my dad emailed them, the way he likes to; in a high tone, a bit like Haytham really.
I got a reply later this evening. Now all of sudden I'm ready to finish my study in three months again. I'm horribly confused now. I can not set my goals anywhere if they keep changing like this. They know I can not stand huge switches like this yet it happens over, and over, and over. Gahh~
So much for the drama.
This is all I wanted to drop from my chest...
Thank you for reading~
P.s. I'm at the Elf Fantasy Fair in April 2013, both days. Yay!