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Soooo, this isn't probably much of a shock, but I think Id do the right thing to share this with some of my followers... .

After a lot of thinking, I decided to stop with my photography study. It's been enough, and I think it's the right thing to do.

At this moment I am studying for almost 7 years on a study that should take 4 years... . By the law I am allowed to take more time on my studies as I have several (illness) indications... But I think everyone can imagine the feeling of failure if you still don't have anything achieved in 7 years while others do it in 4... .

The study isn't hard and is more close to being easy really... My teachers have often questioned me why I don't simply start for myself already as they think I do well enough... That is when I am at school...
And there is the problem... when I am at school... .

Most people know (or dont so in that case, prepare for a shock...) I have several problems... I've been diagnosed with Manic Depression and Borderline. (Tadaaaa!~)
This means in my case I am really looking for a good enviroment and I like to know what people expect from me. No chaos, order. (This sound a bit Templarish heh? FILTHY BORDERLINERS!!)
Anyway, My school is about the exact opposite of this. It costs me a LOT of effort to go to school and just sit there and wait 'till I can go home. (As really, I don't learn much new stuff.)
Even then, Im still totally broken and dead when I get home. I want to crawl in my bed and stop the time. Whiiiich I still can not, working on that.
Anyhow, I am allowed to work about 20 hours a week and my school really doesn't care about it. They don't even want to talk about it, there is no option.

And really, I can understand people find it hard to believe something is wrong with me as no one can see something about me. I ain't sitting in a wheelchair and I don't have any broken arms... My brains are in a wheelchair.. they function well, but with their own difficulties... . But as no one can see that, no one cares.

It's 7 years later now, and I think it's ok. It feels like trying so hard for something I will never achieve in the end. Maybe I try something else to get at least a bit of appreciation in the end. But for what I'm doing now, It's been well and good.

I'm not stupid, nor I am dumb, I can make good photo's which I will continue doing, but not for school. As this delivers me 500 Euro loan a month and that's just too much.

There.
And for everyone who thinks I am looking for attention for being 'oh so emo', screw yourselves and you know where to find the delete/unwatch button. I know the real deal and that's fine for me.

There.

XoXo~
  • Mood: Tired
  • Playing: AC BF
  • Eating: Rice with Milk (thats really good!)
  • Drinking: Cola

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Maryonne Vlasblom
Artist | Hobbyist | Artisan Crafts
Netherlands
General
Name: Maryonne Vlasblom
Nickname: Cinestry Rozar
Age: 23
City Born: Ede
Current Residence: Ede.
Work: Scare Actor, photographer.
Favourite genre of music: Rock, punk-rock, techno, instrumental (Soundtracks of movies and such).

Photography
Favorite kind of photography: Portraits/Studio
Favourite photographer: Sandra Nagler-Dahl, Erwin Olaf
Operating System: Windows 8
Editting: Photoshop CC
Camera: Nikon D80
Lenses: Sigma 18-200,
Favorite studioset: Elinchrome

Cosplay
Favourite cartoon character: Liru the Werewolf
Cosplays so far: Courtesan (ACBrotherhood), Alex Mercer (Prototype), Corsair (ACRevelations), Kuo (Infamous2), Original Japanese Dress, Maverick (AC3), Anne Bonny (ACBF), James Kenway/Mary Read (ACBF), The Dandy (ACBF), Safiya Bennu (AC OC)
Started Cosplaying: June 2011.
Level: Hobbyist
Planning: Beatrice Hell Version (Dante's Inferno), Ponyo's Mother (Ponyo), Skullkid (LOZ, Orcarina of time), Tsunade (Naruto), Pyramid Head, Haytham Kenway (AC3), Malon (LOZ), Jack Sparrow (POTC), Venelope von Schweetz -Princessdress- (Wreck-it-Ralph), Julien du Casse (ACBF)
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AvocadoPolymath Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi and thanks so much for joining :iconeagle-vision:! If you have any questions, please ask! We hope you enjoy your stay :heart:
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MaryMODIFIED Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Haha well I saw all your posts on the Abstergo industries, and I couldnt agree with you more... then saw you had an own group... I just HAD to join ;)
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AvocadoPolymath Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Haha wow that means a lot to me! Thank you :) I still can't believe how selfish Dee's being in closing down the group.
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TaksiSado Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh please, stop do it, pervert :iconohhmyplz:
(Thanks For Fave)
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MaryMODIFIED Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Whahaha please do explain how faving that pic is perverted? :P
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TaksiSado Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yap
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MaryMODIFIED Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Hahaha Okay xD
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jodeee Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
now its my turn to poke you :poke: !
How are you Missy? not heard from you in a 
wee while. Hope all's okay
 KFC Chicken Epic Dance 
(I don't know what he's all about but
he made me laugh)
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MaryMODIFIED Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Haa, sorry, Yeah sorry sorry... T_T

I am alive, but tbh I am not doing all that great... a lot of things on my mind ._. and busy with things to fix with my lawyer (I have to go to court for something in 3 weeks... nothing major though, it just stresses me up... and it makes me feel like Im a criminal ._.)

Hahaha okay tbh I didnt saw at first it was chicken, but I bursted out with laughter as I ate chicken this evening and now Im seeing this... totally had to make one myself :P

Anyway, sorry about replying and being silent.

How are you doing dear??
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jodeee Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
aww, I'm sorry to hear that. Good luck with it
I hope everything goes smoothly for you. I hope it's nothing too serious.

I know, he was too silly to not add to the message. 

Don't worry about it. I was just returning the favour, I hadn't heard from you in a 
while so I thought I'd check in.

I'm very well thank you :) all's going good.
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